Break the Rutt

This was our first long drive just as a family. A visit to New York city.  Atleast two days before the drive, my head was spinning just thinking about it, thinking of the rush in NY not sure how the vacation was going to be. If it was the right choice. As we began driving, the drive was not that bad, we were entering Pensylvannia during the night and could see the mountanious Silhouette, I decided the drive back should be during the day. We reached New York middle of the night after meeting our cousins over. I just fell in love with the crowd, people walking all over aimlessly looking around. Men in their suits at 1 AM in the morning. street mongers, cyclysts. I can just keep going on and on.  The drive back was so refreshing, driving through the mountains was a treat. I was engrossed in my own world and enjoyed driving. I loved something about New York, not sure if it is the crowd, not sure if it is away from my work(abandoned my laptop this trip) but I just loved being away from the day to day routine. May be thats what it is! A break from the daily rutt even though you get to the busiest spot for vacation.

Solitary

My mom lives in Brampton and it is about less than 4 hour drive from my home. As I am driving, I come across these new wind mills near Chanttam that have been coming up recently. The green fields and the windmill always take me into a different world for a few minutes. Every trip I look forward to get carried away, there were couple instance I have come late night and missed seeing them but try to stare at them in the dark, where their red lights keep blinking in the dark.

So Majestic yet so feeble
Stading out there lonely in the field day and night
You just give in... just let the wind lead you in its course
You let the wind lead you, just so you can generate power

Generate power for others to benefit.
You amaze me!

Down the journey

I got to watch this tamil movie vinnaithandi varuvaya again last night as I was flipping between channels and this movie caught my attention. I got mesmerised and carried away again in the movie as it happened the first time. It just brought back flashes of memories back into my mind and I could even feel the smell of things around me and my feelings at that time. Only some movies can do that to you. As the movie was ending, I realised that may be love would be beautiful only during the initial phase of courtship and would have remained the same if it did not move into the journey of marriage. Once we have something we want, we start caring less about it as we go through our mundane activities. The strong feeling we had at that time.. heart beat racing as I get a glimpse of him.. the few minutes I get to spend seems to be worth a million.. Is it just the age? Why cant we have the same feeling after 10 or 15 yrs of marrying the same person, butterflies are not fluttering in our stomach when we see them. Emotions do not pour out when we see them the end of the day. Does Love die? Should the butterflies become stronger? Expectations arise and if that is not met, anger seems to be the top emotion. Love gets buried between all these emotions but it would be somewhere there just lost if not you would still not be around the person...